i was recently told that 9th grade is calling and wanted their blogging site back (aka LJ) so with much pushing my friend, now known as the majestic bald eagle, i now have a blog.

what can i tell you. I just graduated college with a biology degree in Development and Genetics, and i grew to love it only just recently in my Developmental Genetics lab class. I do not have a job, i dont have a plan, i am very worried for the long run but as of right now i am fine with my life taking no real direction. my mother wants me to become a Medical Technologist now. Its in her newest set of goals for me, along with somehow entering a graduate program by January, becoming a certified EMT, as well as getting certification so i can take blood from people. i dont know, im glad one of us has a plan i guess.

i’ve decided i really do like teaching things to people but i dont know how well i could deal with that. i would need to do education classes. since i am a Bio major im pretty much guarenteed a job, especially if i get certified with special ed as well. if that is the case i can go up state more for the education and live with my friend, who will be known as panda. She goes to school for that just for english. im sure they would be similar class types though. [[edit. mom just told me no to becoming a teacher]]

on to other aspects of my incredibly fulfilling lifestyle. i broke up with my boyfriend of just over three and a half years. i found out that he cheated on me, with 2 different girls, at 2 different times. the first was when he visited his sister at college and the second a girl from his class. i dont know whether it was the farmer or the cow and honestly i dont care. im pretty sure its the farmer (or horse) and not the steel mill worker. however he was far too close to both of them. i have much hatred for those two “girls” since they knew that he had a girlfriend and still did it. i have even more hatred for the baboon that didnt have enough respect for me to break up with me and allowed me to hear of all of this from the rumor mill. he also conveniently told many of my friends, prob because he didnt have the balls to tell me himself. im just glad that i never have to go back to school to see him again. him, the farmer, the cow, or the ape of a friend that tied them all together and lied to me. I’ve always had a problem with him ever since his track record with my best roommie for life. i thankfully never believed a word he said and i hear from another friend, lion, that he rooted for the baboon to cheat on me. so fuck him. so thats a short introduction to the baboon, the ape, the cow and the horse.

so now lets get a quick overview of all those times i could have cheated on the baboon but didnt bc i thought he was the love of my life (and after 3.5 years who wouldnt think something like that).

first. the guy from home. i havent decided on an animal name for him just yet but we’ll go for him first since we have the most history. we met in highschool. we flirted A LOT but nothing ever happened bc im kind of a fool and dont ever make the first move. and when he did i was far far far too drunk to realize. i came home the first winterbreak of college (and had already started dating the baboon) and encountered him at a bar. he told me the next day that he wanted to kiss me when we were standing by the bathroom (waiting for my friend to stop puking). every time i saw him we had been friendly. he went back out with his ex girlfriend so i thought that was done. however they recently broke up again. panda is friends with him and tells me that she told him i broke up with the baboon and he seemed happy. so when i went to visit panda, i sent him a joke text ( a slut had texted him the same words a prior weekend). he and panda’s boyfriend came over that night. we just all sat around and talked mostly and when they left, he took my hand and said, dont lose my number again. that was on friday night.

Second. d.saurs. ive also known him since highschool, during which i had a huge crush on him. we road the bus together. mine was the last stop and he was second to last. by the end of hs he was just him so whatever. while in college every time we saw eachother at a bar at home we would tell eachother all the rumors we heard about classmates or teachers. one weekend, we were talking and i guess he thought i was leading him on or something. later that night after i had gotten home he sent me a text asking if we could chill. which obviously is a no, since i didnt even think of him like that, as well as having a long term boyfriend. i made the mistake of telling amanda who saw him before i did and proceeded to talk to him about me having a boyfriend etc. he then didnt talk to me the next 2 months every time we saw eachother he would look away etc. now that ive been home i feel very awkward around him bc of what happened. i’ll say hi and smile but idk. we’ll have to see how that develops.

three. i cant say much about this bc there is nothing there. things like hold my hand where people cant see, touch arms together and we got very close to near kissing a few times (at least it seemed like that). but nothing ever. i even had a dream that he kissed me and i pushed him away saying that i cant do something that i am accusing baboon of. then a week later i found out he had cheated on me. i would never go into that territory though. now looking back on it im sure it is all just being drunk.

since this is my first post i feel like this is way to much information. im going to stop here. no im going to stop here.