i just never am comfortable when someone gives me a compliment or tells me that they like me. i just instantly become one of the most awkward human beings ever. unless i am a little drunk. then it depends on where the compliment is coming from. but thats not always the case. thankfully this weekend i feel like i managed to not be awkward. thank GOD bc that would just be silly and annoying amiright? hopefully it will go better than the last date. at least this time i know i can talk to him and i dont really have to go through that awkward hi i am 23, i went here, i graduated with this etc etc. i will eventually get better at that but like ive said before, i date people i know because of that. i am already comfortable with it.
In all seriousness, i am such a private person with that stuff. i’ve never been the one for PDA (i hate seeing other people make out in front of me so i wouldnt want to make someone else feel like that) i’ve really only been all PDA once and i was absolutely MORTIFIED the following day when i wasnt completely wasted. I dont like discussing who i like with people bc i’m too vulnerable feeling and even though i know i wont be, i dont want to be judged in any way.
i like small gestures.
i like private moments tucked away from others.
Last night i had a dream someone held my hand and i had butterflies.
like i am a 7 year old.
who has that kind of dream????
im just a completely bizarre 23 year old.
i’m one of those people who would have dealt fine in the world way back when it was pettycoats and umbrellas in the sun, with men trying to win my affections and holding hands was a scandalous affair. sometimes i just feel like i am part of a dying breed of female, one that doesnt sleep with people on first dates or second dates or even third dates. i am strickly monogamous and completely fine with that. i dont judge people for their own actions, just i dont like feeling that i dont belong because of it.
I get you loud and clear! I am the same way, though only 16. I hate compliments and get all awkward if anyone compliments me in any way. I’ll actually say thank you to a… whats the opposit of compliment (brain freeze…). I won’t feel bad about it at all and I love constructive critiscism.
I feel, write and apparently i even speak as though I belong in Jane Austine’s time. I like old fashions, I lvoe the classics, and I love dresses. I could be a total girly girl in the 18 hundreds. But I also love the freedom a girl can have now. I wouldn’t trade my education and my right to a higher education in for anything, and I love driving, and I love that I can have a job. lol.
But like you, I don’t like PDA. I don’t mind so much if someone else does, I mean just so long as I’m not out with my friend and her bf and they start going totally mushy leaving me there to sip my drink and awkwardly turn my head away. Thankfully they don’t do that much. I don’t mind if they hug or smooch or if she sits on his lap when we are all hanging out in a big group.
I agree with what you said here:
“i like small gestures.
i like private moments tucked away from others.
Last night i had a dream someone held my hand and i had butterflies.
like i am a 7 year old.”
though I didnt have that dream, I get what you mean. for me, when most of the kids my age are just kissing and then things happen from there and they become a couple, i prefer to know that someone actually likes me, for me, not for looks or body or because im vulnerable, just like you, and not that I have looks. I dont even wear make up (well, ill wear a bit if i go out, but not much not often) and Id like to know that whoever I would date doesnt care about that. (a guy i liked once, once said to me that I would be so much more approachable if i wore make-up…deal breaker for me- take me or leave me, you get what you see). I’d be thrilled if a guy let me know he liked me and then held my hand infront of his friend so long as I had given him the go ahead first.
I live in a world where I want to stand on my own to feet (modern girl) but I want whoever my man is (or will be) to prove to me that he is true… woe me even (well for later in life
) (old fashioned me).
By: Mirellarose on July 3, 2010
at 9:50 am
I most definitely felt way more awkward about this when i was younger. i am glad now that i have a boyfriend that understands that (especially now that its summer, not only pda but also just the fact that its 90! i dont need you all over me! haha) Good luck!!!
By: epop on July 6, 2010
at 8:00 am
i very much enjoy your blog.
it brings me much joy.
: D just thought i’d let ya knoooow!
(you should paint your nails different colors and ‘spirit them up!’, so they look cool! …wait, i could have said twirl! D: i’m rambleing! D: did i spell that right?!)
By: almostalice on July 5, 2010
at 12:12 am
I get that, I’m very much that way.
I’ve always been a bit of a “freak” but thankfully I’ve grew in to it, like my curly hair.
By: Dreamriddenheart on July 5, 2010
at 9:41 am
I am the same way!!! Like the person who commented before me, I am also 16 years old. I never accept compliments and people always call me out on that. And yeah, small stuff means SO much more than big gestures.
By: whosaidlifewaseasy on July 5, 2010
at 2:17 pm
haha from the title of your post i thought you really were a 7 year old… and then I read a little and thought… wow! she writes pretty well for a seven year old! and tthen I read “unless I’m a little drunk” and was like “waitWHAT?!” haha
silly me.
By: kuhlayladut on July 5, 2010
at 8:49 pm
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