alright need to go through this logically.

i have been at my current job for 10 months now.

• PROS: i like h.r., b.t., t.r., k.c. and thats about it. i pity some other people there but thats not really counting for much. i enjoy working in the lab with the subjects and with the blood specimens (when we actually have subjects come in). i’m comfortable in what i do and being competant in it.
• CONS: there is no possibility of me getting a f/t possition there ( i am presently per diem which is shit). there is no possibility of getting a raise (i can make this working at jcrew which have have done before). There is no possibility of me getting even 40 hours a week (i get 5 hour days, which can either come twice or 3 times a week). i absolutely hate being there with my entire soul. im no longer happy. i walk down the hall and place a happy little facade on me that is dropped the moment i pass a person in the hall and they can no longer see me. k.m. makes me physically ill when i have to deal with her.

New job: I spoke with this doctor because he actually works at my present job and needs a new person to work with him. he normally gets a student from the nearby uni but he figured since we are having problems he would offer it to someone from work.

• PROS: it seems really easy. I have to basically work a single test with patients and then the rest of the time i have to answer phones and do paperwork (its no dream job i know). i’ll get paid more (still not a great amount but something i can physically live off of). i will be getting a f/t position. i would be getting benefits like health insurance. since its a doctors office so close to not only the uni but also the hospital i might figure out an in with something i legit would want to do.
• CONS: since it is so easy i will be bored out of my mind the second i understand it all. i am working with a breathing test for which i dont care about. it is very far uptown so the commute will suck more (im gonna get up tomorrow and do the commute and see if its a deal breaker).

Now with this its is fairly obvious that i should choose the new possibility. however i am really hung up on the remote possibility of growing at job1, even though i know it wont happen at least for a few months and i have given them nearly a year to actually be worse off than i was when i first started (and now i have rent to pay). i should say fuck them and leave CL. and if i get health insurance i’ll actually be able to go to the doctor when i have shit wrong with me (like right now with my neck ear extreme pain).