Im not sure how old he was but he is my great great uncle. he was a brilliant man that held many patents in his years as an engineer. He made sub engines quieter somehow…. i dont really recall seeing as how i saw these binders when i was MUCH younger and couldnt really decifer all the crazy maths. in his later years his mind certainly didnt die but his body did not seem to comply which frustrated him most. honestly i thought he was going to die 2 christmas’s ago because he was in the hospital muttering about how he wasnt aligned in the right magnetic fields and whatnot. for an hour dad and i sat in the new haven hospital with V. Only when we left and said good bye to him did he suddenly snap out of it and realize we were there. now he is actually gone. its just crazy. i remember him gardening. he had crops of tomatoes and cucumbers and had a constant battle with moles and the sandy soil. i remember him mowing the lawn with the push mower. and i realize how much 20 years affected him as opposed to me. while i got bigger and stronger he got older and weaker. his stature diminished and his skin paled. his eyes drooped and his voice creaked. but he still was there, hidden away behind the dropping skin and curving spine. his eyes sparkled whenever i spoke to him about graduating. and the day i told him that i was no longer in school for engineering was one of the days i felt most disappointed in myself because i feel like i had lost that connection with him. he never became less proud of me, but i just wish i had that ability to follow in his footsteps. sadly he had so many problems that he could not control. he was on medication for parkensons when he didnt have it, he was treated with unkindness in many hospices. he just wanted to be left alone but noone seemed to understand.

This life can only leave us lonely theres no tommorow
Just another little hole in my heart another little hole in my heart