Fuck that Part Dos

wtf is one of the whores doing hanging all over coyote? and then why is coyote still staring at me when he is huggin up all over the other bitch (that deer got into a fight with saying she is a whore and she just proved it even more in seconds). honestly i liked going out in the other town i went to, eye candy and waht not but my home town is nothing compared to how incredibly unclassy a place can be. it amazes me. i hate being there but i love seeing people that i know and hate and/or love in strange little ways. like d.saurs. said hi to him near the bathroom. he’s got himself a girl but still its funny to see him. then theres coyote of course. bc i know im not making it awkward, i dont care anymore, yea it was fun but whatever. why do you have to have that happening? its really not like i even care but i have this problem that i need to know everything even if i dont need to know it. i dont even tell people usually if i know things, i just want to know. i have a need to be a confidant. its a terrible curse…. i just want to be a fountain of knowledge if the need should arise.

fuck that

i am so sick of hornet making excuses not to hang out with us. panda and i are both fed up with this shit. who comes home for the night before thanksgiving then is like oh im getting sick i dont want it to get worse so i am not going out to see you guys. but you are welcome to come over. no i have things to do which is why i planned on going out at 9. to see my friends that i havent been able to hang out with in a while. not saying anything but i am going to visit panda with Deer next weekend for Deer’s doc appointment. i was excited to see hornet because i never get to see her. but nope. she is making it difficult again. just like halloween, we had to go to her because she couldnt get a cab and refused to get on a subway. so we had to relocate a party of people to find her ass on the other side of town. its just bull shit like this that makes me think that i am trying to make this friendship work while she doesnt do much . gah

i have to go get dressed to go out with the people who i want to see tonight

50 Reasons to have Sex

i love himym

anyway. today was the last day i took the train home. i am a fucking idiot and somehow managed to fall asleep between the stop before my stop and my stop. had to have dad pick me up at the stop following my stop. commence your shameless laughing at my expense. thank the lord i dont have to do that anymore.

ps. IM MOVING OUT! just reiterating that completely solid fact. i have to be a big girl with big girl responsibilities.

i knew it would come.

It’s inevitable as a Date. i would have accepted sleeping right thought it but i woke up basically the entire morning (seeing as how i am normally up at the crack of dawn). not saying that i didnt try. i stayed in bed until 11. i went shopping with mom for a possible bed. she’s decided on a twin, or a daybed with a trundle under it. how silly and childlike is that? i know the room is small but i really would like to have at least the same size bed that i have now which is a three-quarter sized bed. we did find one frame that is actually that size which was cool. i bought 2 bags for myself, a simple shower curtain (for 5 bucks) and a santa for my mom. then i got home talked to panda for 2 hours and 20 minutes on the phone since we havent spoken in about 2-3 weeks and needed to make up for all the lost time. but here i am with 2 hours left of this day. just sitting. with no mood really at all just sitting here. plus i was stupid and listened to the wrong song. i have no idea why i did that so i really did bring this upon myself. bullshit that what that is.

I need a blanket. i dont know what else to do. the nights are cold no matter how many articles of clothes i put on. i miss the warm october nights.

now i am listening to the backstreet boys. Brian, Nick, Howie, Kevin and AJ. you make the world better.

drunk dials?

who gets wasted after really deciding to get an apt with her friends then drunk fucking dials grandpa??

oh thats me. i shouldnt be allowed to have my phone when i am drinking that much. im so embarassed and i dont want to call him to be like heyyyy i wasnt drunk, just excited and i didnt have good service (he wont understand cell phones and think my yelling was just my cell being retarded? i sure hope so). dammit that sucks. either way. IM MOVING OUT!! with bald eagle and lets call the other….. scrawney grizzly. anyway i am really excited (enough to call my only surviving grandparent after having approximately 9-10 drinks). i have the middle sized room. i need to figure out how im gonna organize it. im anal like that an i need to diagram shit out. what a terrible life. either way im ready to go-go and have all the hometime cocktails in the evening as i want (that first month will prob involve quite a bit of them, hopefully the novelty wont wear off toooo soon.

How i met your mother.

You picked the wrong guy.

Ted.

You picked the wrong guy. You made a really, really, really bad choice. what were you thinking? That guy?? Are you kidding me? Have you learned nothing in the last 8 years? You’re just going to regret this, you know that right? You are going to regret this, and now there is nothing you can do about it because it is too late. All you can do know is go up there and start your crappy disappointing life that will never be nearly as happy as the one you could have had with me. Goodbye.

Ted wait-

Look stella, I am not here to win you back. I am here bc I need to know that you know, that you made the biggest mistake of your life.

I know

Good.

Ted, you mother fucking rock.

Happy halloween!!!

so friday was halloween. i had a blast as little red riding hood. im gonna have to start thinking up ideas now for next year. im jealous that i never thought to do things from my childhood shows like Double dare, or legends of the hidden temple. its something to look into. OH we should do GUTS next year. do do do you have it? possibly yes. anyway, so friday was with friends, sat i wandered with Deer in the city, and today i helped dad withthe gutters. i am super productive. i feel bad for dad. he is starting to act his age and is all hurting and whatnot. he needs a better helper.

the election is coming up on tuesday. i however work on tuesday. i feel like this election is huge and since i know my state is already hands down democratic, i know me not partaking in this wont really matter but i want to pull the lever, push the button, punch the ticket so there arent any hanging chads (or however they do it in this town). so hopefully the things are still open by the time i am done with work and back from the 2 hour commute. i need to look into that for sure.

my third topic is about my court date. i know. dont i look like a rebel. no i was speeding in a town that has a boner for 30mph. thankfully i had the excuse that school just ended and he seemed to think i wasnt use to driving a car or something. i also had the unfourtunate timing of a way over expired inspection and an old insurance card (i know the car gods were really on my side for this one). thankfully the guy was fucking awesome and when he came back he told me that he wasnt going to give me a ticket for either the speeding or the insurance card but he had to for the inspection because that isnt safe. needless to say every god imaginable smiled down upon me at that moment. so i have to go to court to show them the ticket of inspection that i had done a week after getting the ticket. i should call and see if i can just bring them the damn thing and get it over with. its been postponed 4 times. whatever i guess.

i need to clean my room. its disgusting to an overwhelming extent. i need to do laundry greatly. CRINGE

it might have been dumb

But im not running from it yet. im incredibly uncomfortable with this but i dont know what else to do.

Yesterday i went out to a flip cup tourney, we had a team fail as a whole. either way i drank a decent amount of beer. we then we to our fave asian hot spot and i had 3 lycheetini’s. then we went to another place where there was a costume party (which we crashed). not only was their the obligatory sarah palin, but 2 of her friends dressed up like the wildlife that she kills, a moose and a polar bear hahaha). Also there were people dressed up like a team from double dare. i nearly shit myself, i was so excited. either way we got to the train station and decided to get pizza, then one of our party missed her train so we had to wait for an hour. then i made the decision to go to work and sleep there, then work my 9-2 shift. by the time i got to work i decided that it was better to just work from 3 to whenever i left for a morning train. it was a stupid idea but it got me home at 11 as opposed to 5 or 6.

I’m nearly done with the second season of psych. i wont lie to you, its pretty hysterical. im going to give it a solid backing of something to watch if  you have time. my next show to watch is appearently True Blood or whatever the vampire show is. Lion told me to watch it and if i watched that he would watch dexter. since i am on a crusade to have everyone watch Dexter i think it is a fair trade. I’ve finished the second Dexter book as well. it was good, a little more disturbing since i didnt know what was happening (its not a storyline from the show). It involves a man that cuts people up as well, however, he leaves them alive all the way through. It makes my stomach lurch (especially since torture is not on a top 5 faves for me) but i still love Dexter’s character so much i cant help but read along. I just started Dexter in the Dark. we’ll see how that one turns out.

sorry bout that

The last post was completely sad sap, end of the world sounding. i was rather frustrated at a bunch of things that came out of nowhere about halfway through that.

anyway, i have read Darkly Dreaming Dexter. I liked some of the things/characters that were different in the book however i liked the way that the show twisted the bloodless killer into something different and more involved in Dexter’s life. i have the next two books which will be on my train ride list. They are incredibly quick reads and are much more like beach reads in my opinion. However i like getting things read while on the train and things like this make it go much faster when i cant sleep.

Tonight i think im gonna be going out with my guys. Deer has other plans so i think it will be just me and them which im fine with bc they are pretty awesome. I owe 2 of them some beer since they beered me the other night when i had no cash. so heres to tabs and hopefully not forgetting my card at the bar again!!!

I was told at work that i am the most well rounded girl they have ever met and that because of that i am the perfect girlfriend. She hears me talk about video games and boy things all the time all while being able to keep the girl things too. Also one of the PA’s, after having me say i was 22, was like wow i thought you were older, you can hold a very mature conversation (this is the same lady who has the most bazaar conversations in front of me).

15-October-2008

I’m like a shooting star
I’ve come so far
I can’t go back to where I used to be

C’mon whisper what it is you want
You ain’t never had a friend like me

Work today was ridiculous. we spent the first half of the day shit talking people which was HYSTERICAL. it made my life. then i scanned things then had to stop because the stuff wasnt actually complete. i packed up scrubs in rubbermaid bins then distributed the blood pressure machines throughout rooms. other than that i really did nothing. i ate some wendys and bought the Dexter book series. ive read half the first book and its basically the tv show, but awesome because i can remember how the show went and can see his face and hear his voice. still just as good.

other than that my day has been weird. im really happy bc panda is coming home. and Deer has been annoying me as of late. maybe its just me PMSing but she constantly drives me bonkers with little stupid things. who knows. and since i know i am PMSing i know i am just not happy about certain things that have transpired recently. theres something in my mailbox that i just dont know what to do about. all i know is that i dont want to stop yet, but i need to be done for a little while. i just dont know i am very drained. i need to not be at home, i need to not think about things anymore. i just want something new and someplace new. i just realize how much i really hate being stuck here, living this hometown life. no matter how much i try to tell people that this place isnt terrible, it really is. people are dying all over, most of the deadbeats i know are getting into fights, getting DUIs or just being complete losers heading nowhere in life. i just cant handle this place any more.

i sometimes want nothing more than to be sitting on the couch in 325 partaking in a game of halo, taking shots like they are water, and not having a care in the world. knowing that no one is going to be getting stabbed at locations i often visit, knowing that i have a bed and someone to share it, and just feeling like i am not completely alone in just about everything. i need to go take a shower so i can work and be clean tomorrow. Everyone, either read or watch dexter, watch chuck, the office, psych, himym, and ive yet to watch any of the new season of pushing daisies but since i liked it last time it should be on the same track.